i've been having an interesting week and a half(ish). Jackson has been nursing like a champ, bless his little heart. he's also been cluster feeding. like every 30-45 minutes. all i have to say is OUCH. it started out as just a little soreness and then morphed into (how do i put this delicately?.....) cracked and bleeding issues. ohmygoodness excruciating pain. i started pumping every other feeding to give myself a break. (pumping doesn't hurt quite as much) between that and the ton of lanolin i've been using, i've started to heal. i was nursing him yesterday, and he grabbed me with his sharp little baby fingernails and tore a chunk out of me. (he gets wild when he's hungry) so that's that. i knew in the back of my mind that he was swallowing a little bit of blood when he was nursing, how could he not since i was bleeding?
all of that leads me to this: i nursed him today at our MOPS meeting, and when i was burping him he spit up a little bit of pink colored milk. i looked at him sympathetically and rubbed his back because he usually burps more than once. the next thing i know he vomits bloody breastmilk up all over himself and all over me. (it was even coming out his nose! my poor baby!) he continued to spit up tiny amounts of bloody breastmilk the rest of the meeting. i called the lactation consultant at the hospital when i got home, and she advised me to use neosporin (instead of lanolin) and to just pump for the next 24 hours to give myself a chance to heal a little bit. being the dutiful mother i am, i pumped, and fed him a bottle the next time he got hungry. needless to say, bloody breastmilk vomit all over. again. i swear he vomited everything he ate up (not all at once, but over the course of about half an hour) i think that the blood he's swallowing is upsetting his little tummy.
so my dilemma is this: do i continue to pump and give him bottles of milk? (his last bottle was barely pink. if you weren't looking for it you wouldn't be able to tell) or do i buy a little bit of formula and give him that but still pump and pitch the milk? i don't want to quit nursing, but i want him to be able to keep his food down. i'm leaning towards the second choice.